I Need YOU

I've gone so far alone

I don't have the first clue how to back track my way home

I miss You

In the deepest and emptiest recesses of my lonely soul

Please come get me

I have no clue how to come get You

The empty scripture quoting, the simple prayer remarks in my mind leave me with a lonely emptiness I can't articulate

I need You

You make me feel alive

Its You I am longing for

The futile attempts to fill this aching void is exhausting and overwhelming

The habits of menial substitutions have charred my heart

Tell me You love me again- still, now, and before-since time began

I need to re-experience the personal and utter totality of Calvary

Hell and back so I never have to

I need to refresh my mind in the clarity of You

King Jesus don't pass me by

I need You

Please carry me I'm so very tired

I need Your strength because mine is expired

Lead me to rest in Your heart-filled with love for me

My home built with Your Own hands

Help me to believe it

Guide me to receive it

And establish my soul in your atmosphere

Absent in fear- immersed in love- perfect in peace

Hold me there despite the storms of my earthly lot

Yesterday

Sometimes I miss you

I wish I could revel in your positivity

and undo all your mishaps

I think about you a lot lately

The familiarity of the moments which then were novel

Yea, its true.. I miss you

I'm different today

so if I re-live you it won't be the same

I guess that makes me sad

Yet simultaneously glad

I mourn the loss your absence supplies

Celebrate the reminisce our triumphs provide

I need to formally greet you so that I can live in this moment

so here goes..

farewell, goodbye, so long

Dream-Realty

In between dream and reality

So many obstacles

Ready to anticipate defeat

I am holding you as tight as I can

Dream you are fragile

I am terrified you will slip through my hand

Excuse me laziness, may you show me the quickest route to motivation

The surest detour from procrastination

I have been on this brink before

And I stand here again

But this time I am not alone

I have roamed and as I consequence of coming home

I now have Your clarity

Your promise of my destiny

I see the horizon of the perpetual day...a dream realized

As I stand on Your faith I can see beyond the cloud of my fear-filled doubt

Yes with the pride kicked from beneath me I can stand in humble awe of You

Dream deferred you are now becoming my reality

Dream Realtor I have a confession

In You I have financed all my heart's desire

I am glad you have determined this lot, this life, this dream... as Yours and mine

Ps 37

Good Afternoon 2012

A New Year has come and the old one flew by. I cant hardly understand how time is going so quickly. I think it has a lot to do with how much I find my self doing from day to day. Gabby is now a toddler and keeping up with her engrosses my whole day! I think I want to freeze time for awhile so I can enjoy the fleeting moments of her babyhood! Well the only real resolutions I have involve completing what I started. I want this year to be a year that I wrap up all the loose ends that I am always going to tie "tomorrow".

Retaking the MCAT

Organizing all my wedding cards

Categorizing all my cards from my sweetie

Redefining my relationship with God

Becoming serious about being a servant

Being more kind and loving to the people I cherish

I have literally made a list already. Some of the things are a bit personal, too personal to post. But I think that sums up the big picture. If I summarized 2011 I would definitely call it a year that God has been developing some serious patience in my life. It hit me like a ton of bricks just yesterday how far I have to go, but also how far He has brought me. I hope to continue to strive and press toward the mark, the high calling of God, for which I exist.

One of the biggest epiphanies this year has been this- God is striving to help us achieve all the plans He has for us. Along the way I have acquired some serious scars. But looking at those scars proves His strength. I have decided to claim His strength and not magnify my weakness. This is going to change not only my perspective, but change my life. So good afternoon 2012 and good night 2011!

Happy New Year!

Burnished Gold

Still in awe of YOU! The following is an excerpt from the writings of Ellen White, on the glory of Jesus' coronation!! Can't wait to be there!!

Far above the city, upon a foundation of burnished gold, is a throne, high and lifted up. Upon this throne sits the Son of God, and around Him are the subjects of His kingdom. The power and majesty of Christ no language can describe, no pen portray. The glory of the Eternal Father is enshrouding His Son. The brightness of His presence fills the city of God and flows out beyond the gates, flooding the whole earth with its radiance.

Nearest the throne are those who were once zealous in the cause of Satan, but who, plucked as brands from the burning, have followed their Saviour with deep, intense devotion. Next are those who perfected Christian characters in the midst of falsehood and infidelity, those who honored the law of God when the Christian world declared it void, and the millions of all ages who were martyred for their faith. And beyond is the "great multitude, which no man could number, of all nations, and kindreds, and people, and tongues, . . . before the throne, and before the Lamb, clothed with white robes, and palms in their hands." Their warfare is ended, their victory won. They have run the race and reached the prize. . . .

In the presence of the assembled inhabitants of earth and heaven the final coronation of the Son of God takes place.- My life today pg.351

Gold

Gold is very beautiful! God obviously thinks so as well, because his home (heaven) has streets that are lined with it. In Revelation 21:21 it says, The twelve gates were twelve pearls: each individual gate was of one pearl. And the street of the city was pure gold, like transparent glass.

God Himself has said that in His dealings with us He is acting as a Refiner. He states this clearly in Malachi 3:3: He will sit as a refiner and a purifier of silver; He will purify the sons of Levi, And purge them as gold and silver, That they may offer to the LORD
An offering in righteousness.

God is trying me in the fire just as gold is tried in the fire. The refiner knows the exact temperature to purify the gold. God knows the exact set of circumstances to orchestrate my permanent refinement. The intense heat of refinement will never destroy me! I know many of you have heard this analogy before, but I ask you to meditate on this promise in a new light! God values us infinitely more than the refiner values his gold. In John 6:51 Jesus tells us, I am the living bread which came down from heaven: if any man eat of this bread, he shall live for ever: and the bread that I will give is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world. God dedicated His life to giving us eternal life. That means that we are very precious to him, our life cost Him His life... God will purify this earth and all sin, suffering, and sorrow will be consumed. God promises in Malachi 4:1, “Surely the day is coming; it will burn like a furnace. All the arrogant and every evildoer will be stubble, and the day that is coming will set them on fire,” says the LORD Almighty. “Not a root or a branch will be left to them. We are being purified now so that we will be pure and holy and able to abide with God in His holy habitation. In Amos 4:11 God reminds us, "you were like a firebrand plucked from the burning". God has invested in the refiner's business to purify all of His children. His life covers our life with holiness, perfection, beauty and infinite value. Because of this He has plucked us out of sure destruction and determined to make us holy. God is very much concerned about us and personally invested in purifying us to enable us to live with Him forever. I am thankful for His love, thankful for His providence, and very thankful for His patience.

Process for purifying gold

Detail study of a brand plucked from the fire

Vegan Recipe Index

I am trying to keep track of all the recipes I find online that I would like to try for Gabby. I haven't tried most of these but when I do I will post about the ones she really enjoys :))

Muffins/Cupcakes

Apple Muffins

Pancakes/Waffles

Bread

Corn Bread

Cookies/Candy

Main Dish

Vegan Mac & Cheese

Side Dish