Anticipate Goodbye?

I am sad. Sometimes I try to anticipate goodbye as if that will make it better. Maybe it wont hurt as bad if I try to make myself accustomed to life without you. Live with you further on the edge than closer to the middle.I wish I could close my eyes so I'd never see you leave. Maybe hold them shut to hold you there longer. The sound of your voice. The smell of your shirt. The warmth of your genuine smile. A sincere laugh. A fraction of the things I know I will miss. Trying to store you more indelibly on my heart. I love you. I always have and I forever will. Through our memories we will never say goodbye.

Love,

your Nina

Balance Beam

The reality of knowing I have been doing this has caused me to re-evaluate my life.
Jesus CHANGE me!

GLORY was SOLELY meant for YOU

An Image of YOU

The twinkle in Your eyes
I’ve seen You in a thousand starry night skies
A portrait of all that is true, lovely, and pure
Shining through a million faces
A hint of the image.. that is You
Illuminating rays of sunshine
Converge
My blind eyes
to
Revel in the Divine
Focused on the blue skies above
Bid my mind dwell in the limelight of LOVE
To large to fit in my view
O Lord my God
With my heart I stand in awe of You

~Nina~

I heart you 2011

Soo about those new Year Resolutions...

I was listening to the radio last night and apparently most new year's resolutions last until about mid January (especially those regarding dieting). I immediately began to think about my 2010 resolutions. I couldn't remember so I looked at the "2010 New Year's Post"

I didn't really have any!! I just reflected on the goodness of GOD and realized how much I have been blessed! I have decided that resolutions are a good way to plan ahead but as my mom and I were discussing its best to actually surrender your life to Jesus everyday and each moment ask Him "How can I best serve You". By doing this you can be sure that you will move forward into the person that God would have you be.

I just Praise Him for his Unfailing Love and I know that in 2011 I will continue to get closer to my Savior.

MY BIGGEST BLESSING from 2010 is the Addition of
My beautiful daughter Gabby!!









So as we look to make it through 2011 I do believe that it is very important to remember that God truly does have plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. The text that has really stood out to me as an encouragement for this new year is 2 Chronicles 16:9

"For the eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to Him."

This year my prayer is for God to grant me Grace through His Holy Spirit and Faith in Jesus to live the following :

Belief in God

Trust in God

Loyalty to God

I will pray the same for you. Yes, you. Whoever is reading this I want to let you know that you are included in my prayers as I pray for whoever comes across this blog. That your thoughts, heart, and entire life will be granted peace through God's sweet Holy Spirit, and that you will come to know Jesus Christ as not only your Savior but your dearest friend.

God Bless you

~Nina~

Our Memories

A genuine laugh from belly kisses
Sadly
I know
You'll forget this moment that my heart already misses
Reveling our memories of smiles and silly songs
I’ll hold our spot here
Past
Lifelong

God’s tangible thought
I tilt to smell your hair
Sweet
Reminiscence of heaven's atmosphere

Today I saw
The purest smile on earth
Intricate art
Our memories frozen in the frame of my heart
Destined to fade before they’d fully start

Yet
This part of you will never grow old
Sweet baby Gabby
Forever safe in my soul

Sweet little angel
on loan from above
Our memories
Locked in the eternal sunshine of a mother’s love
Deficient in Tears
Void of Pain
Absent from
Fear
and all torrents of Rain
A haven for my heart’s sweet little treasure

My precious shuggie
Home
At last

Until then my memories
Will hold you here
Emblazoned in my mind

Our Memories
unaltered
bright and unjaded
best of all never to end

~Gabby's Mommie~

Found

Where would I be if You hadn't Found me

Love without boundary

Your presence exponentially abounds

when darkness surrounds me

Your unwound Light wraps itself around me

Therefore all my nights shine as day

There is no place where Your presence won't abide me

You are here

and the midst of Your love and peace

provide my soul's stillness

You have drawn me with cords of lovingkindness

My soul seeks you with endless fervor

Lord

You are my heart's treasure

My mind revels in awe

of how

You sought me again when You knew I was prone to be lost

You bought me when Your very life was my cost

And though I wander

I know

I am

and always will be

Found

~Nina~