Ma-Ma

It started with more of a na-na until she could form a good mmmmmmhmm.. She finally did it. And I am going to attempt to tell the world how it melted my heart.

Feels a little like this:

The most beautiful fireworks you have ever seen. But some kind of a way you can feel them. Beautiful exploding balls of light. Your favorite food just the way you like it. A genuine smile from someone you love more than anything in the whole world. A heartfelt thank you for each and every good thing you ever did (even the things you don't remember doing). Sweet surrender. A warm embrace of innocence. A heart smile. A love so powerful words can't hold it, describe it, or convey it. Joyous peace. Innocent understanding. Humble exhilaration. Roses that you can smell with your soul. A brilliant rainbow. A hug warm, pure, and so tight that it squeezes away all the hurt from a long hard day. A smile so sincere that you start to cry. Purity so rare you stare because you know you won't see it again, not like this, not on this side of the sun. The warmth of sunshine. An angelic symphony-clear, indescribably beautiful, and pure. Love's first verbal affirmation materialized.

Summary:

Fireworks. Smile. With a Pure Heart. To the beat of Sunshine. With the voice of Angels. Love is heard.

My heart will freeze this moment for eternity..the first time you called me Ma-Ma.

Love now-always-forever,

Mommie

Anticipate Goodbye?

I am sad. Sometimes I try to anticipate goodbye as if that will make it better. Maybe it wont hurt as bad if I try to make myself accustomed to life without you. Live with you further on the edge than closer to the middle.I wish I could close my eyes so I'd never see you leave. Maybe hold them shut to hold you there longer. The sound of your voice. The smell of your shirt. The warmth of your genuine smile. A sincere laugh. A fraction of the things I know I will miss. Trying to store you more indelibly on my heart. I love you. I always have and I forever will. Through our memories we will never say goodbye.

Love,

your Nina

Balance Beam

The reality of knowing I have been doing this has caused me to re-evaluate my life.
Jesus CHANGE me!

GLORY was SOLELY meant for YOU

An Image of YOU

The twinkle in Your eyes
I’ve seen You in a thousand starry night skies
A portrait of all that is true, lovely, and pure
Shining through a million faces
A hint of the image.. that is You
Illuminating rays of sunshine
Converge
My blind eyes
to
Revel in the Divine
Focused on the blue skies above
Bid my mind dwell in the limelight of LOVE
To large to fit in my view
O Lord my God
With my heart I stand in awe of You

~Nina~

I heart you 2011

Soo about those new Year Resolutions...

I was listening to the radio last night and apparently most new year's resolutions last until about mid January (especially those regarding dieting). I immediately began to think about my 2010 resolutions. I couldn't remember so I looked at the "2010 New Year's Post"

I didn't really have any!! I just reflected on the goodness of GOD and realized how much I have been blessed! I have decided that resolutions are a good way to plan ahead but as my mom and I were discussing its best to actually surrender your life to Jesus everyday and each moment ask Him "How can I best serve You". By doing this you can be sure that you will move forward into the person that God would have you be.

I just Praise Him for his Unfailing Love and I know that in 2011 I will continue to get closer to my Savior.

MY BIGGEST BLESSING from 2010 is the Addition of
My beautiful daughter Gabby!!









So as we look to make it through 2011 I do believe that it is very important to remember that God truly does have plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. The text that has really stood out to me as an encouragement for this new year is 2 Chronicles 16:9

"For the eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to Him."

This year my prayer is for God to grant me Grace through His Holy Spirit and Faith in Jesus to live the following :

Belief in God

Trust in God

Loyalty to God

I will pray the same for you. Yes, you. Whoever is reading this I want to let you know that you are included in my prayers as I pray for whoever comes across this blog. That your thoughts, heart, and entire life will be granted peace through God's sweet Holy Spirit, and that you will come to know Jesus Christ as not only your Savior but your dearest friend.

God Bless you

~Nina~

Our Memories

A genuine laugh from belly kisses
Sadly
I know
You'll forget this moment that my heart already misses
Reveling our memories of smiles and silly songs
I’ll hold our spot here
Past
Lifelong

God’s tangible thought
I tilt to smell your hair
Sweet
Reminiscence of heaven's atmosphere

Today I saw
The purest smile on earth
Intricate art
Our memories frozen in the frame of my heart
Destined to fade before they’d fully start

Yet
This part of you will never grow old
Sweet baby Gabby
Forever safe in my soul

Sweet little angel
on loan from above
Our memories
Locked in the eternal sunshine of a mother’s love
Deficient in Tears
Void of Pain
Absent from
Fear
and all torrents of Rain
A haven for my heart’s sweet little treasure

My precious shuggie
Home
At last

Until then my memories
Will hold you here
Emblazoned in my mind

Our Memories
unaltered
bright and unjaded
best of all never to end

~Gabby's Mommie~